My Adventures with
Personal Stories of Working with Subtle Energies
A family friend committed suicide. Years later, I decided to meet with him on the astral plane to see how he was doing. During one of my astral travel projections, I met with him and was rather surprised to sense he was still overwhelmed with the same despair and despondency that led to his suicide. I had assumed that after he died, those negative feelings would evaporate. But they didn't. I found him still carrying around all those negative energies as if it was glued to him.
Also on this astral visit, I had an awareness that it is EASIER to process and expel negative energies on the physical earth than on the astral plane. THIS surprised me, too. I had assumed everything would be easier on the astral plane, but that is not so. I also learned that with some of those negative feelings and energies stick as if it some kind of special karmic debt. This results in the need to use a similar path that is used in the karmic debt release process - being on the physical earth and processing the debt so it gets released from the sticking to the soul.
I don't know if all suicides create negative-karmic-like energies or not - I assume they don't. But after seeing this friend who committed suicide several years ago, and seeing how he was STILL overwhelmed with those same negative feelings, it gave me a startling pause. It made me more aware of the need to try and help those carrying around that burden of despair while they are still on the physical plane.
We don't really know what another is going on in someone life and how they are handing their challenges. This is, in part, because we each have different overleaves so we sense and process things differently. But with this astral visit with this family friend, I learned that the pain, despair, and heartache don't magically disappear on death. Some of those negative energies stick to the soul and can't get processed until a later and different incarnation back to the physical plane.
The mid-causal plane is the plane we usually refer to be as being "above" the astral plane. Usually after someone finishes all their lifetime experiences on the physical plane the person will feel a "pull" to join with the next level. This concept is related to the concept of progression and is part of the process of learning and rejoining back to the Tao. The joining to the mid-causal usually includes joining 2 other fragments from someone's entity. This joining usually creates a "trio" or "triad" of fragments with similar energy patterns or focus who will now work together in their life progression process.
After some time in traveling or projecting to the mid-causal plane, I was able to connect and visit some of the triads on the mid-causal. I was told they had become aware of this transformation and change and had been trying to connect and communicate with those who were working on these changes.
These are the "triads" of souls I met from the mid-causal plane:
The process of building a new spiritual infrastructure between all these levels is being done to improve communication, information, and coordination between the different levels. The desired outcome of these connections is to share knowledge, wisdom, insight and improve the process of learning and progression. With these connections, communication, and coordination, we have a higher probability to expand not only our growth, knowledge, wisdom, and insight but improve how we learn and experience life.
This infrastructure and connections that are being set up between all the levels can viewed as if is another type of world wide web. All of this infrastructure is in part, due to the new Shialude energy we now have on the physical plane.
After I met John U.K., my Spiritual Guide and Teacher, who taught me the lessons of spiritual growth through cultivating spiritual energy (see Quesak) he encouraged me transition our communication process from using the alphabet board to exchanging information directly on the astral plane. Communication on the astral plane was the preferred method because a person can gain an even deeper understanding of the information shared when it it is discussed on the astral plane.
"On the astral, you are also much less likely to misunderstand or misinterpret the information." John U.K. said. "The only drawback is that communication on the astral doesn’t always make it from the astral plane to the physical plane."
To help solve this problem, John U.K. provided lessons on memory training and memory recall. This helped me increase my ability to bring back the messages as well as a greater understanding. However, the recall was not always immediate. Sometimes it would come weeks and come through later in a dream, or during a meditations, or just as an instant thought from no where. Sometimes the information would come as an understanding and feeling. None-the-less, the depth of understanding gained from travel to the astral plane was indeed magnified.
Over time I started to travel to other levels of the Tao. This meant I could now visit the next plane "above" the astral, which was the mid-causal plane. On my return from this first visit to the mid-causal, I had stopped by on the astral plane and visited with John U.K., giving him a message to give me next time we connected on the physical plane (earth). I was aware, apparently, the memory training I had been doing was not yet sufficient enough to bring back messages from the mid-causal, so I gave my message to John U.K. so he could later give it to me.
Here is the mid-causal message I had given John U.K. to give me one I was back on the physical plane:
All those who wander are not lost,
All things that glitter are not gold,
Things that are often hidden,
Usually have wealth untold
After I received this message, I said, "huh? What does it mean? Why was this so important?”
He responded he did not know why it was so important for me to receive this message.
I have often pondered this experience and message. I have now realized the message seemed to be letting me know to not worry about the energy of money, but to focus on the hidden energies, which are spiritual energies. It is through this one finds the true value and meaning in life.
When I first started to project to the mid-causal plane of the Tao (the level beyond the astral plane), I met and conversed with several different fragments (souls). Some of these fragments are no longer just a singular soul, but have combined with others to become trios or triads of soulful energy.
One of my first visits to the mid-causal plane, I experienced what felt like a burst of light upon reaching this plane. This was different from my normal astral travel experiences I had previously had. I also felt new vibrations because of the different energy patterns on that level. And, the trio’s or triads of souls seemed to be focused on on certain purposes. For example, the first trio I met was Tera/Terry/Tanya and this is how they described themselves:
“We are the core. We were made aware of you and we have been trying to find the right combination to communicate with you. Our focus is to help prepare baby and infant souls for the physical and to facilitate the process to connect with the Mid-causal. Our desire is to help better prepare fragments so there is not the need to repeat so many life experiences where people learn the same thing as someone else. We are also focused on the preservation of the earth.”
In addition to meeting Tera/Terry/Tanya, I met Susan/Summer/Suzette ( in the 6th level of the Core), also Mary/Marta/Martha (in the 2nd level of the Core), and Fawn/Flora/Francis (in the 4th level of the Core). Some were working to build and improve the conduits and connections between the physical and the astral plane, as well as the conduits between the physical plane (earth) and the Higher Self plane (on the astral), and connections from the physical plane to the mid-causal plane. This process had the goal of helping to improve the ability to travel between levels and visit other dimensions. With this new “highway”, there was the desire to share more knowledge and insight from all the different levels, including from the physical all the way back to the Tao. This new communication was to improve the interconnection and a means for all levels to work together in harmony and with the similar objectives. The overall desire was to improve the human experience.
What I learned from my Mmd-causal travel experiences is that after my first visit, other visits were easier to obtain. I also learned that I could connect and meet with different triads and obtain different information, energy, and insight from each of these different groups.
Overall, I learned we are going through a rather massive improvement project that is affecting all the levels of the Tao. The desired result has been to provide a better experience for humanity. The outcomes will include a greater ability for people to communicate with their Higher Self, their Spiritual Guides, to travel to all levels of the Tao, and to more effectively learn, grow, understand, and progress within any level of the Tao. In a way, it is kind of like an infrastructure project and through this improvement, it will undoubtedly lead to an awakening of awareness humanity has never had before.
Just as you can train yourself to travel to the astral plane, you can also train yourself to travel to other planes of the Tao, too. The first time I successfully traveled to the mid-causal plane, when I woke up, I felt like my body was very, very, very heavy. In fact, I could not even open my eyes for a long time, let alone move. It took me a few hours to get back to normal. This initial side affect was rather surprising, but eventually I got the hang of it and no longer have those affects.
Traveling to the Tao level has been the most elusive of inter-level travel. John U.K. described visiting the Tao, like waiting for a delicate string to appear and then connecting with it to reach the Tao. He also described the strings as being similar to delicate arrays of light.
John UK, a mid-causal teacher, provided lessons on astral travel. This is a summary of a conversation regarding some of my initial sensations after an astral travel experience.
John: Can you describe your feelings and sensations?
Me: I have two different feelings. One is a feeling slipperiness or having no friction. It felt like the glossiness of a book. The other sensation was of seeing bright speckles.
John: What about your feelings?
Me: I am feeling refreshed.
John: Now, when one travels to the astral plane, their spirit or energy body is of course traveling to the astral level as if in flight. But the sensation of being slippery or passing smoothly through this physical plane is a common sensation as well. This is the sensation of the spirit body as it progresses to the astral level.
Now, this feeling of slipperiness is not the physical sensations that you may suppose, for the energy body and the physical plane (earth) are on different levels. But the analogy of your physical body immersed in water and that feeling of weightlessness and yet passing through a medium is appropriate. True, you may feel weightless, but also as your mind becomes more accepting and your recall better, different sensations will stand out at different times. On this occasion, your recall was of the passage through the astral level, the same as passing through water. When swimming under water, you feel weightless and notice the passage of fluid around you. Usually you only concentrate on one or the other.
Now, the speckles. Do you have any impressions about meeting anyone or thing? The question I am asking is, did you feel you met fragments on the astral level.
John: Did you feel that there were many or simply a few?
Me: Simply a few.
John: Your intuitive feelings tell you the impression of the speckles.
Me: A representation of the fragments of the Tao, or souls.
John: Yes. Their energy or their points of light that they radiate.
Me: Why did I meet them?
John: The astral level is similar to the physical, in at times you may meet several or many, or none. The comparison being a small group, a city, or the desert. Let’s discuss the astral plane. There are several levels within the astral plane. The Higher Self being on the level closer to the earthly plane. You perhaps passed the lower level after meeting your Higher Self and went into a higher level, there meeting the fragments, for generally unless there is a purpose, fragments and Higher Selves do not usually mingle.
John: Was the sensation of being slippery during the same episode as your sparkles?
John: Now, if the slippery feeling is the energy body passing through the astral levels, can you infer any insights from this knowledge?
Me: Passing from one level to another?
John: The experience is this. You traveled to the first level of the astral plane and after experiencing your Higher Self you proceeded upward into the next level where you experienced, but did not communicate, with several different fragments. The sensations that were different in this experience were the ones that you recalled, that of passing from one level to the next and associating with several fragments or energy bodies.
The experiences you have progressed through are very unique and different for the energy body. Therefore, it having experienced these does not wish to push the bounds too far and simply enjoys and learns from the things accomplished so far. With further experiences and deeper travels, the communication with the fragments can be possible if they wish it.
Many people, when they first start to go to the astral plane, will have a dream about flying. This is a type of validation that indeed, the person really did travel to the astral plane. Here is my brief astral travel validation dream I had when I first started out and learning about astral projection/astral travel:
I dreamed I could just will myself to fly and I did. As I began to fly I knew I had done this in the past and didn’t know why I had not remembered this fact until now (in the dream). I felt like this was new found knowledge. In the dream I also taught others to fly. Mostly it was young girls because they believed they could also fly, and they did. The others were more skeptical and chose not to believe I was flying even though they could see me fly.
This is a simple and brief dream, but it provided me the validation I really did "fly to the astral plane". It gave me the encouragement to continue this quest and journey, which I have done.
When I first felt confident I was traveling to the astral plane and was remembering my experiences there, I started to prime my mind with the questions I had to discuss with my Higher Self during my travel experience.The information or answer would sometimes be give to me in a dream or an impression. I was pleased to see this new process was working and I was receiving feedback and guidance.
Soon I started to expect that each night I would travel to the astral plane and get feedback and answers, however, I soon learned the answers were not often made that quickly. Sometimes I would wake up with no answer. Nada. I often seemed to come back from a travel experience with nothing.
I then would try the next night and ask a different question. This process continued for awhile and I was starting to always feel blank and started to doubt the process. I was frustrated that I was not getting the information I was requesting.
I then took a break from this and put the dream message process on hold. Shortly after releasing those expectations of always getting an answer on demand, the process started to work again. I realized the the answers and guidance usually don't come on my timetable. Answers and guidance comes when it comes.
Knowing that I can't control when I get the answers and there never is a 1:1 relationship between when I request an answer and when I get it, I have started to not be as "needy" in what I demand and expect from my astral travel experiences. I am more thoughtful now in what questions I ask and now instead of expecting a different answer to a different question each night, it may be days and even weeks that I ponder and explore just one question.
I also changed from having the expectation of all the answers coming in a dream, to now starting to use my morning meditation as a type of receiving mode for those astral travel answers.
In addition, I started to ask more simple day-to-day questions that I tend to have, like "I am really disappointed by this, how can I work through these feelings?" or "how can I improve this situation?" Those kind of questions I started to use in my morning meditation and wait for that inner voice to come directly to my mind and provide input.
There are many different ways to receive subtle message communication after astral travel. My preferred methods are still dreams and meditations, but sometimes, answers will pop in my mind while I'm driving, or brushing my teeth, or even watching TV. It is a process of learning how, and then improving how you receive and interpret subtle communication.
I have moments when I am suddenly overpowered with a feeling of being VERY tired and need to sleep - IMMEDIATELY. I can tell the difference when this is a feeling of being physically tired vs this type of pull. I also now recognize it is a way to call me to the astral plane.
The nap can be but a few moments, but when I “return” I often have that wobbly sensation as if my inner soul is shaking a bit, which happens when I transition too quickly between astral and physical plane. But for the most time, I usually feel refreshed after these brief visits and can then easily pick up where I left off in my regular life.
I usually am not aware of the purpose of these visits but often the next day or so, I will seem to have a new thought, or a new dream message, or have a new awareness and insight come in a meditation. I then realize what the "pull" was for.
I assume others who have become adept at astral travel have similar types of experiences in their travel moments as well.
John UK (my Spiritual Guide and Teacher) once commented how he enjoyed the music by Elvis. He also shared how Elvis (who is dead) would at times perform on the astral plane to the delight of many who are on that plane of existence.
That off-the-cuff comment created a new image in my mind about the astral plane. It helped me realize the astral plane was probably not that different from the physical plane we know.
There is a type of meditation where you sit in a pitch black, dark room, and during the meditation, you suddenly see brightness, as if the whole room lights up.
This technique of being immersed in total darkness and then having the experience as if a light switch has been flipped was a method used in some ancient cultures for spiritual awareness and communication with those on the astral plane (or heavens). Cultures, such as the ancient Native Americans who would journey to Chaco Canyon for spiritual celebrations would engage in these types of spiritual meditations and activities. They would go into the pitch-black dark windowless chambers and in those rooms, would experience moments of radiant light filling their soul, and the room as they connected with the astral plane.
I expectantly experienced this when I was in a dark room with my eyes shut and thought I was just imagining this brightness in the room, so I opened my eyes and the white light and brightness was still there. It didn’t matter if my eyes were shut or open; i was seeing the same thing and the room was filled with light. I was aware I was not “seeing” with my eyes, but was experiencing light within my whole Being.
I had another similar experience when I was pulled in a meditation to meet Gaia. I was amazed of the brightness and the light in what should have darkness, and yet, there I was surrounded by bright light. The experience of being in extreme darkness and then suddenly being immersed in extreme white light can be a profound and memorable experience.
As you may know, souls on the mid-causal plane are often grouped as a triad of three souls bonded together. I became aware of this in 1994 when I met Tera, and she was linked and bonded with Terry and Tanya. All three of them would come together when they would meet with me. I then met other "triads," such as Fawn/Flora/Francis, who also had the same type of trio connection and bond when they visited, too. Each of these triads had different core purposes, such as "Energy of Love" or "Earth Energy".
These trios of souls began when the Tao originally fragmented. In that process, groups of souls, who were closely connected, ended up having similar qualities, attributes, passions, and purposes. They also would be drawn together in many of their incarnations (see "Messages from Michael" by Chelsea Quinn Yarbro to get a better understanding of the fragmentation process of the Tao). Then, in the "regathering process" of the different Tao levels, it is that same bonding and connection that draws and connect these same trio of souls together as they move to the mid-causal plane.
I knew that John U.K., my husband (who is also known as Caladan), and I were one of those three-soul groupings within our own entity, and I also knew that John U.K. had finished his physical incarnations and had moved on to the first level of the mid-causal plane. This meant that John U.K. was in a phase where he was the first of our trio to arrive at the mid-causal, and would be preparing for me and Caladan to join him to become a triad.
I also knew that John U.K. had experienced a life similar to the one I was currently having, and his experience in that lifetime took place around 3000 BC. I also was aware that John U.K. had gone through 370 lives AFTER that life experience, so it made me wonder if I was going to have a lot of follow-up incarnations, too, (which would mean it may be a long time before I join John UK and become a triad). I was rather surprised, and relieved, he was not concerned.
I asked him how he knew he was "done" with the incarnations on the physical plane and ready to move on to the mid-causal, and he said "you just know." This made me think of that question, "how do you know when you're in love?" and the answer is, "you just know." There are some things you just know within you.
John U.K.'s response made me realize that we use the same process of tuning into our feelings as the way we will always make those big decisions. So perhaps, this is one of the lessons we perfect before we are ready to move on - we have to be able to interpret our feelings and have that precise awareness of truth, and when we know how to do that, we can move on and start the next adventure in the next level of progression.
The journey of life may take us through many different life experiences on the physical plane, but the adventure continues as we move through all the different layers of the Tao. It is nice to know that in this journey, we can have those we love share these experiences with us, all along the way.
One thing that surprised me during one of my astral travel visits was that I was told I stink! I was on the 8th Level of the Tao and was accompanied by one of my Spiritual Guides and was meeting and interacting with other Spiritual Beings . But then one of them remarked that I smelled!
I asked my Guide about this, and she said "yes," then brushed it aside as if it was no concern. But I pushed and wanted to know more. I was a bit embarrassed and wanted to correct the situation.
"What do I smell like? Where is it coming from?" I asked my Guide.
"You are from the physical level - the earth! Everyone who comes from that level has a distinct odor. There is nothing you can do. It is what it is," she said in a matter-of-fact manner, and then moved on to the next topic.
This was something I did not know and was rather amazed at.
It was the start of the Christmas season and John U.K. offered to take over the holiday cheer. The burden of decorating, preparing the food, and wrapping the gifts was suddenly removed and I felt the weight of being the family glue suddenly shared. I had my own business at that time and was not flush with cash, but we came up with a few extra dollars which he took to the craft store, carefully selecting items for his decorating task. I could not see how any of his selected items could be used for Christmas decorations, but he ignored my questions and focused on the task at hand.
John UK parked himself in the living room, and all of his attention and effort was directed at decorating the room for the holiday. I returned hours later and the living room had been changed and was magical! Garlands with bright lights had been strung from each wall and crossed in the middle of the tall vaulted ceiling, giving the impression we were in the woods. Cute little birds were wired to the garlands as if they were alive and part of our delightful tree house. The room was beautiful. The whole atmosphere at home changed and we all immediately fell into a cheerful holiday spirit. The home and family had become quickly transformed through this effort.
I asked John what he was planning for the holidays on the astral plane. I said this as a joke 'cause I didn't think there would be celebrations on the astral plane.
"I'm hiding Jesus" he said.
"What?" I said.
"It's my turn to hide Jesus." he continued. "We take turns each year to hide him from the groupies during these holidays. Christmas is really difficult on him. There are a lot of groupies on the astral who want to meet Jesus and are constantly looking for him, but this holiday is particularly bad. Also, thoughts you have on the physical also have energy, and so during this holiday season, more people are praying to Jesus, thinking of Jesus, singing to Jesus, and all that subtle thought energy is directed to Jesus on the astral plane. It is VERY difficult on a soul.
This comment was quite the eye opener for me. I had never considered the consequences of fame beyond the grave and also the impact of thoughts even beyond the physical plane.
I asked John if it would help if Jesus would reincarnate, and then he would have a layer of protection around his soul - a different personality and new identify, if you will.
John said, "Yes, that could help, but the first few incarnations after this type of life are VERY difficult. The person can still feel and sense the thoughts, prayers, words, and then hearing the stories on the physical would be a recognition they are HIS words. But he would not have the understanding of the prior incarnation, per se, to make sense of what is going on. It often results in a type of mental breakdown.
He went on to tell me that Joseph Smith, the Mormon prophet, reincarnated as a woman after his death. He is now living in a remote area of China in part, so he could start creating those layers of protection around him to help protect him from those on seeking the Mormon prophet. He also chose a location that would not be available for Mormon missionaries, This would protecting him from the familiarity and angst she would sense if hearing those Mormon stories.
This little glimpse into reincarnation, activities on the astral plane, groupies, and how our thoughts have energy, made an impression on me. My perception about the after life started to change with this conversation.
In 1999, Al Gore was asked to describe what distinguished him from his challenger for the Democratic presidential nomination, Senator Bill Bradley of New Jersey, and Gore replied (in part): "During my service in the United States Congress, I took the initiative in creating the Internet. I took the initiative in moving forward a whole range of initiatives that have proven to be important to our country's economic growth and environmental protection, improvements in our educational system.
After this response, some said that Al Gore had claimed he "invented" the Internet. Of course, he did not, but he was responsible, in an economic and legislative sense, for fostering the development the technology that we now know as the Internet.
After this debate, I chatted with John U.K., my Spiritual Guide about this event and he shared that Al Gore, in a way, did invent the internet - "he did it on the astral plane" John UK said.
John U.K. then described how MANY of the milestone changes that are happening now, were first done on the astral plane, and then recreated on the physical plane. The internet had been one of those astral projects, and then souls who worked on those projects, like the creation of the internet, then incarnated on the physical plane with the life purpose and task of making a reality on this plane of existence.
John U.K. then shared how Mr. Gore was aware that this project would need political backing to make it a reality, and this was one of the reasons why he had selected to be born into a family involved in politics, (his father had been a Senator). This path helped lead Al Gore towards a political path, which he needed to have to help create the Internet on the physical plane.
The telephone & telegraph, the automobile, the computer, followed a similar process as what was used with the Internet - creating it first on the astral and then recreating it on the physical plane.
Since having the energy of the shialude on the earth, however, these types of astral plane pilot projects are now being directly shared on the physical plane via telepathy. No longer is it required to have those working on the project wait and be incarnated to make it happen on the physical plane. With the shialude energy and the communication amplification between the astral and the physical, the information can be directly shared and used. We witnessed this change with the introduction and growth of social media, for example. Those projects that seem to just take off are often the projects that were first worked on and piloted on the astral.
One of the negative drawbacks of this new process, however, has been an outburst of people clinging to the past and trying to control and suppress choices or human rights. These unpleasant emotional reactions, however, are being focused on to help soften and mitigate the fear. This, we believe, will be calmed and will allow a continual flow of information and support to help improve the quality of life on earth for all.
One of the wonders of working and traveling in the different layers of the Tao is the ability to access multiple sources of information you don't have within the physical plane. For example, you can visit the past, or the future in the physical plane, but in the nonphysical realm, you can also explore alternative timelines where different choices and outcomes were made. This provides a vast array of opportunities to analyze or assess alternative decisions points and then see how to incorporate them into our timeline. In a way, it's almost like being able to run a simulation experiment to determine if a certain decision point provides a better outcome than the one we are living with.
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