My Adventures with
Personal Stories of Working with Subtle Energies
I have had a couple of experiences when people close to me have died, and then I could feel their spiritual self VERY STRONGLY for a couple of days, almost as if they were physically in the room with me. I could sense, hear, and interact with them as if they had physical form, but they did not. I knew they were dead, but they still seemed to have a physical presence - their essence was that strong. Their spiritual presence lasted a few days, and then it was gone. In fact, it was right after their funeral when I stopped feeling them around me.
When my former father-in-law died, I could feel his spirit around me VERY STRONGLY for several days. His presence and essence was of such that I knew he was right beside me. I could not physically see him, but I did feel and hear him. I could hear his wonder and amazement of what was going on now that he did not have a physical body. He even came to one of my Qigong medical treatments, saying, "I want to see what this Qigong thing is all about. I've heard about it, but now want to see it." And so he watched and observed a treatment I gave a patient. But then, at the end of the treatment, he secretly delivered a message to my patient and asked her to tell me what he had shared with her. I was surprised that he could chat to someone in the same room as myself, and me not know it was going on. This confirmed what John UK had once shared; there are different layers so you don't see another person or event, even though you are on the same astral plane.
Then recently, my Qigong teacher died. After her death, she also came to visit me. While I was sipping tea, I suddenly felt her presence in the living room, I looked up and "saw her" and then heard her voice; “So this is where you live, huh?” “Is that green tea you’re drinking? Aren’t you going to offer me any?" And then she laughed as if she just told a funny joke. I could sense her; I could see her, and I could hear her. I knew she was not physically present, but she felt VERY present and her energy was VERY STRONG. She seemed very much the same as how I knew her. For a few days, she would come and go, then, just like the experience with my former father-in-law, after her funeral, I could no longer feel her presence.
Both of these experiences led me to believe that shortly after death, the essence of the physical self is still very much a part of who the person and they stay close to us on the physical plane. But then, over a few days, that physical presence or projection changes, or the energy dies down, and they become more like a "soft whisper," more "translucent," and more like pure energy. My assumption is they no longer need to put energy into what they had been. They have progressed & transitioned.
Caladan is the keeper of the prime radiant. During one of his visits he described the prime radiant as a huge equation of probabilities, but then also said "I can see you as an individual bit of light in this wave of light and equations". I was surprised. He said he was able to track me and review the possible outcomes and directions going on around me. I was impressed, and rather amazed.
Later, John UK, my Spiritual Guide and teacher, said this was not a small feat for Caladan to locate me as it had taken much time and effort, especially since (at that time) there were 5.5 billion people in the world and each person displayed as bit of light and and equation to be evaluated and watched.
John UK continued to tell me that the reason Caladan needed to find my 'bit of light' was because he was going to use me as the means to track the timeline and dimension changes as we created a new Prime Radiant. This was a similar process to what a Surveyor does when they make observations and have someone hold the measuring rod as a point of reference. I had become that point of reference.
After I met John U.K., my Spiritual Guide and Teacher, who taught me the lessons of spiritual growth through cultivating spiritual energy (see Quesak) he encouraged me transition our communication process from using the alphabet board to exchanging information directly on the astral plane. Communication on the astral plane was the preferred method because a person can gain an even deeper understanding of the information shared when it it is discussed on the astral plane.
"On the astral, you are also much less likely to misunderstand or misinterpret the information." John U.K. said. "The only drawback is that communication on the astral doesn’t always make it from the astral plane to the physical plane."
To help solve this problem, John U.K. provided lessons on memory training and memory recall. This helped me increase my ability to bring back the messages as well as a greater understanding. However, the recall was not always immediate. Sometimes it would come weeks and come through later in a dream, or during a meditations, or just as an instant thought from no where. Sometimes the information would come as an understanding and feeling. None-the-less, the depth of understanding gained from travel to the astral plane was indeed magnified.
Over time I started to travel to other levels of the Tao. This meant I could now visit the next plane "above" the astral, which was the mid-causal plane. On my return from this first visit to the mid-causal, I had stopped by on the astral plane and visited with John U.K., giving him a message to give me next time we connected on the physical plane (earth). I was aware, apparently, the memory training I had been doing was not yet sufficient enough to bring back messages from the mid-causal, so I gave my message to John U.K. so he could later give it to me.
Here is the mid-causal message I had given John U.K. to give me one I was back on the physical plane:
All those who wander are not lost,
All things that glitter are not gold,
Things that are often hidden,
Usually have wealth untold
After I received this message, I said, "huh? What does it mean? Why was this so important?”
He responded he did not know why it was so important for me to receive this message.
I have often pondered this experience and message. I have now realized the message seemed to be letting me know to not worry about the energy of money, but to focus on the hidden energies, which are spiritual energies. It is through this one finds the true value and meaning in life.
I became interested in ancient Indian ruins and petroglyphs after my regression experience at Buckhorn Wash. I learned that some the petroglyphs and pictographs from these ancient people were painted at earth energy sites and they recorded their spiritual experience on stone. It was similar to what I was doing with my journals, and then later, on with my blog.
John U.K., a Spiritual Being and Teacher, shared how petroglyphs can be interpreted in a similar manner to how one would interpret a dream - based on the symbols present in the display.
This is what John U.K. shared about the meaning of these symbols in THIS image at Buckhorn Wash:
This is a lovely YouTube video of Buckhorn Wash created by Rex Nye. It gives you a feel for this little corner of the world.
In the early days of my training, John U.K., my Spiritual Teacher, and a Spiritual Being, frequently would take me and my husband to earth energy centers for our lessons. He did this because there is more life force energy in those places and it was easier to communicate as well as have spiritual experiences. Often in those remote earth energy sites, one can see petroglyphs from ancient native Americans. Certain tribes people would come to those same sites to also conduct spiritual activities, and then they often recorded what happened in the stone.
One of those sites showed a type of grid chiseled in the rock. I couldn't help but notice it was similar to the spreadsheet I was creating, that listed the chakras, types of energies, tools, and gifts associated with each of those energies. I asked John U.K. about this and he validated this petroglyph image was indeed similar to the grid I had developed. He shared how he (and other spiritual Beings) had made similar information to some of these ancient people long ago, and they like me, had jotted it down to organize these concepts.
A persistent desire that can not be suppressed may be your Higher Self moving you to the life path you need to be on. There are many different ways of receiving spiritual communication and those nagging desires and thoughts can be one method used to shake you enough to get you to take a leap of faith and move over.
Let me share an example of a persistent desire that happened to me. I grew up as a Mormon in Utah. I had been mentored to believe women were there to help the men. We were the heart, not the head. We were subservient. We obeyed. We followed. I tried to fall in line, but over the years, no matter what, I could not suppress my thoughts and feelings this was not correct.
My discord grew and grew over time and eventually became consumed with angst over women's role and worth in this religion. The majority of my thoughts, ideas, feelings, writings, and conversations centered around women equality, power, education, economics, women and God, etc. No matter what I did, or how strongly I felt, my feelings about women's role vs men's role were in conflict with my religion.
This experience was of this perpetual anxiety and angst that consumed me was an example of a persistent desire coming from my Higher Self. These thoughts and feeling that I just couldn't shake, eventually led me to meeting John U.K., a Spiritual Being and teacher. I found it ironic I was essentially was mirroring the Mormon Church's founder, Joseph Smith, by also having questions about religion and then experiencing a an encounter with a Spiritual Being, and then being encouraged to forge ahead on my own path.
If I had continued to ignore my feelings and those persistent desires, they eventually would have become even stronger and stronger Eventually, there comes a point when you can no longer silence and suppress these desires. Eventually you get to the point you feel like you have not choice but to follow what you feel over what you have been told to feel.
John U.K. guided me to become more in touch with my thoughts and feelings. We began with some of the big life questions I had, but over time, this ability to be more focused and attentive on thoughts and feelings has become an everyday common occurrence. Here are some examples of things that may happen throughout a normal day:
When John UK started the process of giving me lessons on spiritual development tools, experiences, and spiritual gifts, he would often pause and say, “How does it feel?” This line of questioning was repeatedly done throughout each and every lesson. That simple question, “How does it feel” was also a lesson unto itself. The redirected thought process of stopping and then focusing on my feelings reinforced the concept that information should not just be accepted blindly. With everything new you learn, you pause, assess, and evaluate how it feels before accepting it to be part of your life mantra and value system.
I had been raised as a Mormon and was taught if you seek information, you turn to the Prophet, or the local Bishop, or your father, or your husband. You then obey. It is called faith.
The Mormon church had originally been founded by a lad called Joseph Smith, who actively sought answers, was visited by angels and others from spiritual Beings, and also received spiritual messages (using a urim and thummin). He translated those messages into books (Book of Mormon, Pearl of Great Price, Word of Wisdom). But in my day, this religion had become an institution where only men, and only a few men, could have the answers. The rest of us were expected to obey and follow. A religion that had originally been founded on being proactive in cultivating and using spiritual energy now no longer even taught or encouraged its use.
So when I met John UK, a spiritual Being and Teacher, his teaching approach to spirituality, seeking guidance, and learning was totally different from what I had been raised with. He expected ME to FEEL my way to the answer that was right for me. He expected me to tune in, get in touch with my thoughts and feelings, to question, and then feel the answer. This is when the lesson began, and is the basic foundation of learning to sense and relate to spiritual energy.
John U.K. would probe me in a way that would help me better clarify and define my thoughts and feelings. After each response, he would then have me go deeper into my feelings. His way of teaching changed the ownership and responsibility of learning from being passive to being one that was very active. I had the option to reject or accept every concept presented based almost entirely on my feelings.
Learning to value ones own ideas, thoughts, and solutions is a totally different way of orienting oneself to life. This helped me realize I had power and responsibility for my life and how I directed it. I was no longer just a passenger following the crowd. I had choices and could create my own life plan and journey.
The outcome I most appreciate from learning how to tune in and get in touch with my feelings, was the recognition and awareness I have a personal guidance system within me at all times. I can tune into my feelings, recognize the sensation, and then interpret the message anytime or any place. I now am able to more actively engage my built-in communication mechanism and am better at interpreting my internal messages. This helps me stay on a life course that is more aligned with my true life purpose and also reduces the "noise" from others who expect me to follow them.
From my point of view, learning how to go within, recognize and understand my feelings, and then how to use my feelings for guidance, has probably been the most important life lesson John UK gave me.
In October of 2008, I recorded there was a change in my meditation today. Usually in my meditations, I feel myself stopping out of my body, then feel my head expand and “tingle” but this time, I stayed in my body but then felt my head “unfold”. The image of a cloth being unfolded, one quarter of a time, then being laid out flat was the image that I saw in my mind.
The next sensation was an awareness I was not alone, but had someone with me. This person was new, and at first I was uncomfortable because I did not know this energy nor did I know what the purpose of this connection was. In my mind a song then played, “Simply the Best” by Tina Turner. My next thought was that only a few have gotten to this point, so I felt pleased.
I asked the name of who was with me, but the name or sound was unfamiliar and the thought then came that it is difficult to associate a thought around something so new and different from what I have not yet experienced. I was then aware that one starts to build a frame of reference around what one is exposed to. One of John UK's lessons on time and time travel was about learning something you didn’t know existed, and how you first needed to be aware of its existence and then you could seek and learn from it. I was now aware, THIS was one of those “awareness” experiences and a new concept was being unfolded to me, like that image of the cloth unfolding.
I could see and sense that my image of time being linear was rather limited. It was archaic. I could also see that our concept of progress and advancement from one level to the next to go back to the Tao, was also limiting and archaic, too. I was being shown that one could stand almost anywhere in this mass of time and space, take a step. and it could be backwards, or to the side, or forward, or somewhere else. And I also realized that some of my weird dreams were not that weird…that they are preparing my mind to accept different concepts, including the “walking through walls”, or being absorbed by rocks”, or breathing under water. These dreams were real experiences, but in a different concept and world than what I have built or created in this reality.
I could also sense different motivators and drivers in human existence. I had been clinging to the emotion and sense that love is the universal connection, but then I felt like there was something more. I was drawn to the concept of curiosity as well as the motivator of learning and continued growth, and sometimes it is that sense of cuirosity that makes a person put aside the comfort, security, and even love, to satisfy that urge.It is that energy which drives one to grow, seek, learn, and discover.
The next thought was that it wasn’t about the amount of time spent at this place in my meditation, but what mattered was the connection and arrival or being here at this moment. The meditation then felt done, and it was over.
There is an exit near Eagles Nest off I-80 between Wendover and Salt Lake City (SLC) and on the South side of the freeway is a little hill with 3 pillars of rock on the hill and look similar to the rock cairns from this photo. That area was used as a council site for several Native American tribes over 500 years ago. The council would discuss such things as sharing of the grass lands between tribes. Grass, at that time, was a main source of food; similar to our wheat of today, according to John U.K.
"The placing of the rocks on the cairn was part of a ritual to enter the council area. Not everyone was allowed to place rocks on the cairn; only those who were designated for that honor," John U.K. continued.
Rituals are a way to direct and focus thought. These Native Americans would use rituals to help establish that community connection with each other as well as the Tao (or All-that-Is/Source Energy).
In a remote area off Thompson Springs on Highway 70, north of Moab,UT, there is a pictograph panel called the "Sego Canyon Pictographs". Many years ago John UK had us visit this site and described the story painted on the rock. He said many or the rock carvings are significant stories of spiritual events. They can often be interpreted similar to how you interpret a dream - looking and knowing the symbols to help you decipher the message. This particular pictograph was a representation of part of our story, so wanted to show us this panorama of this ancient art. He then walked us through some of the symbolism and story on the stone.
The story is read from right to left and is the tale of two people (me and my husband). The solid figures on the far right mean they physical Beings. The elongation means they can connect with the astral plane, or are able to communicate with the heavens (astral plane). There currently are no spiritual markings, such as different colors or lines in their physical body. These markings will change with spiritual growth and spiritual experiences and will be depicted with the changing events. There is also a small gray figure on the right as well as a small bird, a crow, on their left. The gray figure on the right represents the earth. The crow on the left is the representation of John U.K.
The next vignette shows one solid figure (me), an Owl (the representation of Caladan), and a Crow (a representation of John U.K.) above two small solid figures. One of the two small figures, however is now depicted as a spider, or something with different facets - such as being able to share his body to allow different souls to come in and use that body.
The next vignette shows the phase of preparing for a journey by being given resources to help in the journey. The solid figure now has antennas, which is a representation of telepathy - the ability to receive and send messages. Spiritual gifts are represented by two snakes. Snakes are a symbol of the kundalini spiritual energy. There are also many other figures in this portion of the vignette representing they, too, being part of this journey.
In the next vignette, the solid figure now has eyes that are wider and rather buggy. This represents insight and knowledge -the ability to see beyond what most can see. There are also more nonphysical, as well as physical beings focused on this journey and experience. The figures with lines through their body mean they are Spiritual Beings. The figure with MANY lines and carrying a T-shaped object is the representation of a "Harmony" or Being from another Tao, bringing our world the Shialude energy.
This is a close up on the solid figure in this phase of the journey. The snake on the right has four round circles as does the snake on the left. These circles are representations of the chakras. The four chakras on the left are representations of the four upper chakras and the higher spiritual gifts associated with those chakras. The chakras on the right are a representation of the lower chakras and those spiritual gifts closer to the physical plane. The dark solid staff is representation of the Shialude energy.
The next vignette is showing the growth and expansion of spiritual gifts in humanity. Many souls are now able to develop and cultivate life force energy and develop their spiritual abilities. The elongated figures shows they can connect with the astral plane and other planes of existence. They have internal markings showing us they have spiritual gifts and abilities. And, the earth is still here.
I first met Steven at the airport in Detroit. He was with a bunch of guys in the Delta Crown Room and I was there waiting for my flight back to Utah. Steven kept on looking over at me, like he knew me. I was starting to get a bit uncomfortable. Finally he came over and said the standard line of “don’t I know you from somewhere?” I laughed and said “no”. He kept on asking questions to find out where our paths could have met. He sold yachts and boats in Florida. I lived in Utah and was in health care. There was absolutely no place or way, we could have ever connected before.
A few weeks later he tracked me down. This was rather surprising since I had only shared the name of the company I worked at and my first name. He wanted to let me know why he was so insistent on connecting with me - he told me about “Locks” and how he was a "Lock" and had been alive since well before the birth of the United States. This would have made him over 200 years old. He looked to be around my age, which was around 40 years old at that time. I was skeptical. He continued, saying he had personally known George Washington and Thomas Jefferson, in fact called them a bunch of hoodlums and laughed stating that history had become rather kind to them. "Being a 'Lock'", he said, "meant he was supposed to stay alive until the next 'Lock' came, which was expected after about 200 years. He said he had been told he would be made aware of the new 'Lock' when he met this person, and THIS is why he was so insistent on meeting me; I was the new Lock!
"WHAT? I am not a Lock! nor do I want to hang around for 200 years," I thought.
Steven, however, was so excited about this because now he could be NORMAL! To be a Lock, his metabolic time had been SLOOOOOOWED so he could live centuries. It was as if his body was on a different type of clock. outlive everyone, serving as kind of a point person to observe and report on changes in humanity within the USA over the centuries. He had watched his wife get old and die, as well as his children get old and die, and how he had to keep moving from city to city and leaving loved ones behind over and over and over again because he could not age, nor could he share the reason why he didn't age and the role he had assumed.
The purpose of a' Lock' is to help provide feedback regarding the timeline. It is a way to have a long-term "constant" there to assess the outcome of certain events that are transpiring on the Prime Radiant. John U.K. verified that yes, indeed, there were people who served in this role and were known as 'Locks" or 'time travelers'. Having volunteers serve in this role helped with assessments, evaluations, and future predictions.
John U.K. continued, "There have been tales of people who never age throughout the world, even the story of , and there has been some truth to many of those stories."
Since the Prime Radiant changed since this original meeting with Steven, and also now that we have the Shialude energy and are more able to move easily through time and dimensions, we no longer NEED someone to serve as a lock. More people now have the skills and abilities to travel through time, and as such, can more easily report and assess what is happening in the Prime Radiant.
I have not seen nor heard from Steven again, and I am not planning to stick around for a couple of hundred years. I'm absolutely relieved the role of the 'Lock' has changed and improved in my generation.
Before John UK left, he said he would send crows as a visual reminder when he was near. Whenever I see these lovely black birds, I think of John U.K. This has become a way he sometimes sends that physical reminder he is near, or comfort, or even an awareness I am not alone.
When I got divorced and relocated to California, John U.K. told me he and my other Spiritual Guides would provide special protection for my children and would also step in and help in ways they could help. Years later, my son introduced me to the woman he had met and fallen in love with. Her last name was "Crow". I immediately knew John U.K. had a hand in this matchmaking connection. It was a type of validation that all was well.
Sometimes these types of subtle messages can provide comfort and support that may never come in any other way.
John U.K. once said that birds are often used as a means of messaging the physical from the astral. Birds can be prompted to be at a certain place, or act a certain way, as if to alert of message a person on the physical plane. For example, John U.K. said that when I see a bluebird, for example, I should consider this a message of love being sent.
He also shared that some on the astral plane have used birds to be a representation of themselves. For example, John U.K. chose the to represent him. He said my bird was the eagle, and Rob's bird is the swan. But the next day he said Rob's bird is the owl. I thought it was strange that John U.K. changed the bird representation for Rob, but later, when it was more obvious that Rob's body was a type of portal where different souls could come into and temporarily stay in his body, it made sense. This was John's way of letting me know that the bird sign could change for a person, depending on which soul was housed in that body.
Some time after this conversation with John U.K. about birds and their messages, I was on a little off-road exploratory jaunts with my daughter and were cusping a small hill. Suddenly, we saw over a dozen turkey buzzards perched on many of the fence posts. We pulled over and paused to observe these birds because it appeared as if the birds had been staged and waiting for us. All at once, all of the turkey buzzards stretched out their wings in perfect unison and held that outstretched pose for several minutes. It was as if this moment was one of those bird communication moments.
Of course, this moment of stretching their wings could have been they all needed to cool off at the same time. But because of my bird conversation with John U.K., I couldn't help but interpret this to be some type of message. I thought it was a moment of honoring the presence of my daughter. Even now, when I think of this moment, it still makes me smile.
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