My Adventures with
Personal Stories of Working with Subtle Energies
After the election of Donald Trump, I actually found myself going through the seven stages of grief by Kubler-Ross. I was a bit surprised by this, but then again, I had seen the outcome of this election choice before the election, and knew it was going to be a bloody, chaotic, and difficult path if Mr. Trump were elected.
The day after the inauguration, I wondered if we would find ourselves at war, but we did not. I breathed a sigh of relief and thought, "hey, this is a good sign! We haven't been bombed!" But since that inauguration, each day has been filled with angst, emotional dread, and complete anxiety. I am finding the need to combat these anxieties by retreating into meditation to shake off what I see and feel. In this meditative process, I try to find that center - you know, that place of peace and zen, but when I can't, I seem to continually asking "what, why"and what can be done?" in these meditations.
These are the reminders I keep getting in my meditations, and if you are like me, you may find this information helpful for you as well.
Chaos is a way to Purge Stuck Energy
The world has a lot of stuck energy and if the world is going to give birth to a new energy that is inclusive, more feminine, and is based on working together, along with caring about the earth. This means the old and stagnant energy should be purged to allow for this new growth. It is like that saying, "don't put new wine in an old bottle".
What is happening right now is that the hidden and stuck energies are being called forward with a lot of flamboyancy. It is as if they are clinging to the past and puffing about like a male peacock, daring anyone to fight them. This is demanding attention and also a discussion about whether people see this path (and old stuck energy) as who they want to be. This process is creating an environment where people are questioning who they really are, how they want to live, and where they see their future. Some will embrace the old peacock, but most will say no - it is not representative of who they are, what they believe, and who they want to be. This process of exposing things that used to be hidden, ignored, or not discussed. Now, everything will be exposed. People will need to choose either fear or love.
When People Lose Something they Value, This is When They Seek Answers and Solutions
Often when someone goes through a loss (lose their home, their job, their money, their health, a loved one, etc) it is very difficult. It essentially forces a person to either learn from the experience and move on, or the person may choose to stay stuck. These are usually milestone moments that help a person define who they are and what they are made of. This time period is providing a similar opportunity for people to choose and grow, and choose to stay stuck.
It is in this process of pain and chaos that presents itself as a catalyst to become awakened. Yes, it is going to be a painful and difficult. Yes, America will not be the country it once was because the birthing process is difficult. It is survivable. The outcome can be an awakened energy on the earth. That is where we see things moving to.
This is a Period of Energetic Change
This is the last hurrah of the old guard. The new President (Mr. Trump) really is a great example of the old guard's stuck values - egocentric, power centric, exaggerated wealth and status, chauvinistic, treating and viewing women as objects, viewing people not like him as inferior, etc). He is a superb bad example of the type of person most do not trust, or even like. But he is an effective representative of the old guard, and this helps people clarify what they don't want in a leader or even as a neighbor.
Eventually the birthing process of this new era will be complete, and the new energy will be born and take root. That new energy will be more feminine, more inclusive, one of support, acceptance, and with love. It will also have a strong connection with Mother Earth. When this happens will be dependent on when society says they have had enough of the old and are ready for the new way of thinking and being.
When John UK started the process of giving me lessons on spiritual development tools, experiences, and spiritual gifts, he would often pause and say, “How does it feel?” This line of questioning was repeatedly done throughout each and every lesson. That simple question, “How does it feel” was also a lesson unto itself. The redirected thought process of stopping and then focusing on my feelings reinforced the concept that information should not just be accepted blindly. With everything new you learn, you pause, assess, and evaluate how it feels before accepting it to be part of your life mantra and value system.
I had been raised as a Mormon and was taught if you seek information, you turn to the Prophet, or the local Bishop, or your father, or your husband. You then obey. It is called faith.
The Mormon church had originally been founded by a lad called Joseph Smith, who actively sought answers, was visited by angels and others from spiritual Beings, and also received spiritual messages (using a urim and thummin). He translated those messages into books (Book of Mormon, Pearl of Great Price, Word of Wisdom). But in my day, this religion had become an institution where only men, and only a few men, could have the answers. The rest of us were expected to obey and follow. A religion that had originally been founded on being proactive in cultivating and using spiritual energy now no longer even taught or encouraged its use.
So when I met John UK, a spiritual Being and Teacher, his teaching approach to spirituality, seeking guidance, and learning was totally different from what I had been raised with. He expected ME to FEEL my way to the answer that was right for me. He expected me to tune in, get in touch with my thoughts and feelings, to question, and then feel the answer. This is when the lesson began, and is the basic foundation of learning to sense and relate to spiritual energy.
John U.K. would probe me in a way that would help me better clarify and define my thoughts and feelings. After each response, he would then have me go deeper into my feelings. His way of teaching changed the ownership and responsibility of learning from being passive to being one that was very active. I had the option to reject or accept every concept presented based almost entirely on my feelings.
Learning to value ones own ideas, thoughts, and solutions is a totally different way of orienting oneself to life. This helped me realize I had power and responsibility for my life and how I directed it. I was no longer just a passenger following the crowd. I had choices and could create my own life plan and journey.
The outcome I most appreciate from learning how to tune in and get in touch with my feelings, was the recognition and awareness I have a personal guidance system within me at all times. I can tune into my feelings, recognize the sensation, and then interpret the message anytime or any place. I now am able to more actively engage my built-in communication mechanism and am better at interpreting my internal messages. This helps me stay on a life course that is more aligned with my true life purpose and also reduces the "noise" from others who expect me to follow them.
From my point of view, learning how to go within, recognize and understand my feelings, and then how to use my feelings for guidance, has probably been the most important life lesson John UK gave me.
In October of 2008, I recorded there was a change in my meditation today. Usually in my meditations, I feel myself stopping out of my body, then feel my head expand and “tingle” but this time, I stayed in my body but then felt my head “unfold”. The image of a cloth being unfolded, one quarter of a time, then being laid out flat was the image that I saw in my mind.
The next sensation was an awareness I was not alone, but had someone with me. This person was new, and at first I was uncomfortable because I did not know this energy nor did I know what the purpose of this connection was. In my mind a song then played, “Simply the Best” by Tina Turner. My next thought was that only a few have gotten to this point, so I felt pleased.
I asked the name of who was with me, but the name or sound was unfamiliar and the thought then came that it is difficult to associate a thought around something so new and different from what I have not yet experienced. I was then aware that one starts to build a frame of reference around what one is exposed to. One of John UK's lessons on time and time travel was about learning something you didn’t know existed, and how you first needed to be aware of its existence and then you could seek and learn from it. I was now aware, THIS was one of those “awareness” experiences and a new concept was being unfolded to me, like that image of the cloth unfolding.
I could see and sense that my image of time being linear was rather limited. It was archaic. I could also see that our concept of progress and advancement from one level to the next to go back to the Tao, was also limiting and archaic, too. I was being shown that one could stand almost anywhere in this mass of time and space, take a step. and it could be backwards, or to the side, or forward, or somewhere else. And I also realized that some of my weird dreams were not that weird…that they are preparing my mind to accept different concepts, including the “walking through walls”, or being absorbed by rocks”, or breathing under water. These dreams were real experiences, but in a different concept and world than what I have built or created in this reality.
I could also sense different motivators and drivers in human existence. I had been clinging to the emotion and sense that love is the universal connection, but then I felt like there was something more. I was drawn to the concept of curiosity as well as the motivator of learning and continued growth, and sometimes it is that sense of cuirosity that makes a person put aside the comfort, security, and even love, to satisfy that urge.It is that energy which drives one to grow, seek, learn, and discover.
The next thought was that it wasn’t about the amount of time spent at this place in my meditation, but what mattered was the connection and arrival or being here at this moment. The meditation then felt done, and it was over.
During the early training phase by John U.K., I was on a diligent quest to find a new religion or group of people with similar beliefs as I had. I had been raised in a very religious home and community so finding a new religious organization seemed natural. At that time, I was clueless in how to live without a community that wasn't based on a religion. It was all I knew.
John U.K. politely sat back and patiently waited for me to travel this path and have some experiences. I continued to study religious books. He would say, “how does it feel?” I would then sit back and tune into my feelings. I was surprised how empty I was left after reading these books. I felt totally unsatisfied, almost as if I had been feeding on air rather than food.
I later learned that part of these feelings was my awareness that was coming from the energy of my 2nd chakra. I was learning that the 2nd chakra energy was helping me to discern truth. As a teacher, you allow the student to make have their own experiences and they often make mistakes. It is during these times that lessons can be learned. John U.K, was using this technique to help me learn to discern my feelings when I came across truth and compare it to those feelings when I felt empty.
We would discuss the information in these books and I would argue how this book had millions of followers. John U.K.'s response was, "but how did it make you feel?" I learned it didn't matter if there were followers or not. Truth was truth.
John U.K. used my feelings of when I found something empty and would compare it to those moments when I came across a nugget of truth. The starkness and contrast of my feelings surprised me. When I found something true, it was as if my heart would soar and I knew deep inside it could not be shaken. The contrast was the emptiness when coming across something that was just hollow words.
For me, this was a startling revelation of how powerful feelings could be to help a person discern truth. John UK's comparative exercise was a very effective lesson. Over the years I have read many, many books about religion and spirituality but have found only a handful that even whisper, let alone speak the language to my soul.
If you are pursuing the energy of growing the second chakra, and want to develop and nurture your ability to discern truth, there are many tools available to help you cultivate that energy. In addition, you will also need to tune into your feelings and learn to translate the messages that are coming to your soul. You do this be being aware of your feelings.
In the early 90's I was being taught by a Spiritual Guide named John U.K. He was teaching me about spiritual energy and the development of spiritual gifts. These gifts are associated with the different energies of the chakras, and one of the spiritual gifts is called "Truth Sensing" and is based on the energy of the second chakra.
One of my first experiences in being aware of this gift was during the Clarence Thomas supreme court hearing where Anita Hill testified before the Senate committee. It was so OBVIOUS to me that she was telling the truth and I was dumbfounded when others could not see this. This was a startling revelation to me because her testimony RESONATED to my very core. The experience I felt while watching the hearing taught me how this energy works - it transcends you to the point of amazement that others don't see and feel what you are experiencing.
Years later, I had another experience when I was listening to a man who was trying to sell me on his virtues and who he was. I KNEW he was feeding me bullshit and was filled with lied. In fact, I looked around the room at others and it was as if they were in a daze, and I alone knew the truth. I could FEEL the lies, and it shook me to my very core.
This, I have learned, is how the gift of sensing truth works - you KNOW the truth, you FEEL the truth, and the experience goes to the very heart of your being. The whole transaction can be very powerful, and also very personal.
On another timeline, it is Anita Hill on the Supreme Court. Clarence Thomas is someone none of us heard about.
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